Why I do this...

I have read my friends blogs, my husbands blog, and even strangers blogs and wondered why do people believe it is necessary to read about the lives of strangers or loved ones. Or why does someone feel that their own life is a journey that others want to peruse. What in the human experience draws us to connect with others in non-personal ways? Blogs allow for comments to be made, feedback to be given, peer approval to be manufactured, but only if the reader feels opinionated enough to add their own commentary.

I am beginning this blog as an opportunity to vent emotions and experiences that I do not feel comfortable discussing with others audibly. I finally decided to delve into the blogging world head first this morning after a disappointing weigh in at my local gym. That may be a silly or insignificant bump in the journey of life, but it bothered me today. Even hours after wards I am still thinking about it. The thought of having to be on a diet for the rest of my life keeps rotating in and out of my mind. This fear of mine is strong. I hate the thought of being on a diet for more than a minute. I workout regularly, the prescribed frequency and duration the facility recommends. The regimen states 30 minutes 3 times a week. Even with my strict adherence to the Curves motto, I am not losing the pounds successfully. This month marks the beginning of a new program at Curves, which I adore. The "Smart Equipment" pits a battle between myself and my potential. I was burning around 500 calories in each 30 minute workout. With this accomplishment, I went into my monthly weigh and measure appointment with enthusiasm, only to find disappointment. I had gained 2.5 pounds and most of my measurements were higher than last month. The only explanation I can conceive is that I am ingesting more calories than I am burning, therefore making the fear of living on a diet more real than I have ever believed possible. Is there anyone else out there in the ever-growing internet population that has the same fear? the same desire to be healthy but still eat what we want?

There is my rant for the day...